I can’t believe that I didn’t blog at all last month. Well, actually, I can believe it. I don’t know whats wrong with me. I’m in a rut I guess. I don’t want to focus on my own life or issues or anything. Lately, all I’ve been wanting to do is listen to music, help friends, talk to friends, etc. I don’t want to do anything with my sites, life, anything. Its like talking and doing stuff for others is like… Its like a getaway from my own issues.
Honestly, I really couldn’t tell you what I’m going through because I don’t even know right now. I’m just so angry all of the time. I mean, I’m not depressed or anything, I’m just angry. I think I know why. I live with these god awful brats that Ed has. They’re loud, rude, disrespectful, brats! I’m sick of them! Particularly Brandy. She just turned 10 and like over night she became SUPER BRAT! Now all she needs is a cape that says so. UGH! I’ve never hated a child so much. I just want to strangle her!
What makes her really bad though is that her father, Ed, does NOTHING about it. He wants to still pretend that he’s a kid. He doesn’t want to be a parent – but he wants to be called one. He doesn’t act like a parent. No. In fact, he lets his brat kids push HIM around! Lol! Its hilariously pathetic. he needs to grow up and be a parent. He needs to accept that he’s not a teenager anymore and needs to stop pretending he’s one. He doesn’t see any problem with how he acts though – which is twice as pathetic.
Since I’m sure that you’re sick of that little rant, I’ll move on.
I guess, just dealing with all these lies that Ed has told us, I’m sick of it. I’m sick of being lied too. I’m sick of living in one hell hole after another. I’m not asking for heaven to be placed in front of me, just a place that I can have some peace and quiet. A place where I can relax. A place where I don’t have to deal with one lie after another every day. Where I have privacy once in a while. I really don’t think I’m asking for much.
I’m just so angry about my life right now. I just want a little normality in my life. Whats worse, is I am stuck in this god forsaken room for WEEKS ON END! Right now, we have no vehicle. I can’t tell you how god awful it is being without the van! Its horrible! We’re out of food, I’m sick of the brats, I’m just going completely crazy!
Whats worse is we have no idea when we’re going to get the van back. Dad is working on the van at his own convince. He’s doing it as a favour to me I guess. I’m just frustrated. Who knows when we’ll get the van back. We really need it back. He’s already had it for an entire month. I’m dying here!
Anyways. I’ll try to blog soon. I’m also thinking about changing the website layout. So you may see a new theme up shortly!