Um… It Is My Money…

icon Something I hate most is letting my mum borrow, well, use and spend my money. See, I let her borrow it, but the issue is that she never pays it back. She doesn’t even try. Then when I bring it up, she hands me her card and gets that little attitude and says “spend whatever”.

I mean, it’s just so rude and just completely nasty. She never says thank you for my letting her have my money either. Then when I get upset about her spending all my money, she gets pissy. In my opinion, she has no right to get angry or pissy or even have an attitude. Its my money, encase she forgot.

Then she tries to bring up all of the things she buys and does for me. I’m not trying to be mean, but that’s not what we agreed to. She chooses to buy those things for me. I never said that paid me back for the money I lent you.

I think the worst part about it is, that over the years, she has never even tried to pay it back. Instead, she gets an attitude about it. Like she’s entitled to my money. As of right now, she owes me almost three thousand dollars that she has never tried to pay back. At all. She doesn’t even bring it up and say she’s sorry for not paying me back or anything! like her owing me money is just “who cares?” and completely unimportant. :/

For the record, I’ve been loaning her money since my childhood. Birthday money? Yeah, she got pretty much all of it. Worst case was this year. I got a total of $90 from people at McDonald’s who we’ve become friends with in the past few months. These people are barely getting by or are just about homeless themselves. But they gave me money for my birthday to (as they say) “buy myself something nice”. So guess who got every penny of my birthday money? Mum did.

Today I wanted $10 from my birthday money and what does she do? Say no. :/ She always says she’ll pay me back and I get we’re fucking broke, but I want at least some of my money! It was given to me! I get we’re homeless, but I’ve helped a lot with it. I’ve given her all my money since we became like this and all I want is 10 fucking dollars.

Not to mention all of the fucking hard work I do. I have to organize our van nearly every day just to be able to sleep. For the record, this is a nearly 3 hour process, every day. I fix the bed, make the bed, find us food, organize, help wash the clothes, fold the clothes, get us free things whenever I can, give her every penny I have, and more! And I can’t even have $10 of my own money?!

After all this, she doesn’t get why I’m pissed or upset about my money. She gets this attitude that she has absolutely no right to have. I mean, I get she can’t pay it all at once, but just mentioning that she wants to pay me back once in a while would be nice. She won’t even bring it up, at all, but gets pissed when I do. sorry, but that just isn’t okay with me. It feels like she’s using me.

Right now, I’m thinking of taking up this job offer that I’m kind of interested in. The part that bothers me though is when I get said job and work hard, where will my money go? Oh yeah, to my fucking mother. As usual, I’ll do all the hard work and she’ll get all the money from it. I call that using somebody. Parents are supposed to support their kids, not the other way around. (Well, kids do support their parents when their parents are grandparent age! When they’re in nursing homes. My mum isn’t.)

I mean, if I wanted or was ready to support another human being, then I’d have a fucking kid. But I’m not, so I don’t. I want my money for myself and I don’t mind sharing some with her, but every fucking penny is just too much. Especially since she doesn’t appreciate it, at all. I give it to her and she doesn’t even say thank you or anything.

Like… whatever. It just pisses me off and she doesn’t care. She just cares about having some rude entitlement attitude. Sorry, but grow up. Sometimes my mother can act like a huge baby. She’s 60, not 6. She needs to think about that.

I don’t mind helping out, but I don’t want to be used or taken advantage of either. That’s where i draw the line.