I had this very strange dream last night. I could really use some advice on it, if no one minds.
The dream was basically about me and a guy I used to know in school. His name was Chris and we used to go to school together. We were almost always in the same class. We knew each other up until 6th grade when I left the school. Now, we weren’t really friends or anything. Just sometimes during break we would play cards or I would watch him play cards with someone. Sometimes he would bring like, I think they were Welch’s fruit snacks and he would give me all of the orange ones. Lol.
Everyone used to tease us, saying that we had a crush on each other. Now, I’ll be perfectly honest and say that yes, I did have a crush on him. There was no way that i was going to admit to that back then though! it was too embarrassing. Lol. If this was happening now though, I’d no doubt admit to him that I like him.
For the record, yes, I do still like him. No, we haven’t spoken since 6th grade. yes, that was like 5+ years ago. Maybe I’m just in love with his memory. I don’t know. Maybe I don’t want to know. I mean, I still think about him pretty frequently, I don’t know why. I just do. I always have. I still wonder what might have happened if I admitted my feelings. Though I don’t think it would have gone anywhere really. Still a nice thought though. Lol.
Anyway, in the dream were talking. We actually ended up ‘getting together’. However, I don’t believe that was the main idea or message of the dream at all. When I woke up, I felt this important need to get a hold of him. Now, i’ve been awake for hours now and I just can’t get this feeling out of my head. Like, God or fate or whatever! Wants me to talk to him. Like I need to talk to him. Only problem is, I don’t know what I’m supposed to talk to him about. I highly doubt I’m supposed to be talking to him about my feelings either.
I do have him as a friend on facebook, which I sent him a message through a while back. He never responded. I sent his brother, Michael a message, to whom I used to talk to somewhat often back in school. I don’t really think he ever knew my name though. xD honestly, i don’t think i knew his name back then either though! We would just talk, about anything. never long talks, just short ones. he always seemed like a really happy and nice guy. So i figured maybe I would try to get in touch with him again. He was a good guy.
As for Chris though, I’m not sure what to do. I don’t know what to say. he never replied to my first facebook message and I don’t want to seem pushy, sending him another one or something. Plus, how do I really start talking to him? i mean, I can’t just come out and say something like, “Yo, Chris! I had a dream about you! God said that we need to talk, but I have no idea what about!” He would look and think i’m totally insane!! I don’t want that!
So i’m really stuck, because i really, really feel like we need to talk. I don’t know about what. So i’m just… ugh… I don’t know!
Can anyone offer some advice? I really have no idea what to do right now.